Sick.

Being sick is SO not cool.

That's really all I have to say for now. I have to go to Evolution, but I just wanted to put that statement out there. I'll possibly edit this entry later when I have no other motivation to do anything other than lay down and go to sleep.

ciao.

BREAK CANNOT COME ANY SOONER.

I'm kind of beating myself over the head about the whole thing...and probably exaggerating the amount of work I have to do in comparison to others. But to me it's a lot. And I get stressed easily. So, here is my DONE IS GOOD list that I made on paper...I figured I needed to blog too so I'm going to put it on here as well.

CHEMISTRY:

[X] Q & C Chap 11/12

[X] Chapter 11 Homework

[X] Chapter 12 Homework

[ ] LAB.

[ ] FINAL.

BEHAVIORAL NEUROSCIENCE:

[ ] FINAL.

EVOLUTION:

[ ] 3 readings for Tuesday.

[ ] 3 readings for Thursday.

[ ] Final paper on Mass Extinction.

[ ] FINAL.

HIGH MIDDLE AGES:

[ ] Leprosy paper rewrite.

[ ] Black Death paper.

[ ] FINAL.

And then of course there are the obligatory items on the list like: pack, clean, make sure about winter housing person, stay sane...etc. Today I really want to get my Medieval papers done. That would make me feel really productive and make me really really really happy. So after I finish ranting in this post that's what I'm going to do.

I just want to say I REALLY HATE BRYN MAWR'S CLASS LOTTERY SYSTEM. Ack. I'm now on the waitlist for Cultural Anthropology which I was counting on getting in because I really need to finish my Division 1 credit. AND...I went to check the Microbiology class that I'm absolutely dying to take and the results weren't even up. They made a mistake and posted the results of another class under the link for Microbio. SO PISSED OFF. I just want to know. At this point I'm not all that confident about getting in, but I'd really like to know so I can figure out what other stupid class I have to take. I just hate I can NEVER EVER get the [SCIENCE] classes that I want. Though I am in the 300 level Medieval History class I signed up for. History minor? For what purpose you ask? Who the hell knows...

Well...in lighter news, it did snow last night. You'd never know it because it's all melting, but it was pretty when it was actually snowing. And my parents brought me my  new phone last night. AND I LOVES IT. She's a beauty. And it was nice seeing my parents again, even though my mom came to visit me on Thursday and she might even come again during this week. It just makes me feel better to see them because I know that break is coming and I have wonderful home to fall back on soon. 

I feel like there was something else I wanted to rant about, but I don't really remember. Jen's the only one who reads this anyway =P. BUT I'M SO GLAD JEN'S COMING BACK TO BRYN MAWR YAYYYYYYYYYYYY. Basically I'm going to be bugging and nagging her all the time because I've had a semester without seeing her and I'm going to want to talk to her all the time. Teehee. Look out Jen ;].

OH, I remember. Books. I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO READ ANYTHING. I have like three books that I've started. But I haven't been able to read at all which made me uber sad. I haven't been able to add onto my reading list and there's no way I'm going to get to my goal of 20,000 pages this year. Oh well. 

[ ] Game of Thrones.

[ ] A Dirty Job.

[ ] The Ropemaker.

Alrighty...I guess that's it. I'm going to go talk about how the Plague effed up the Church now. YAY!

ciao!

 Summer Reading! I was pathetic, I know. But I need to recap anyway. [Also continuing on from the yearly page count...]

8. Lamb or the Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal--Christopher Moore : 444 pages.

9. Gods Behaving Badly--Marie Phillips : 292 pages.

10. My Most Excellent Year--Steve Kluger : 416 pages.

11. The Friday Night Knitting Club--Kate Jacobs : 360 pages.

12. Good Omens--Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman : 367 pages.

13. Atonement--Ian McEwan : 496 pages.

14. Wyrd Sisters--Terry Pratchett : 288 pages.

15. Water for Elephants--Sara Gruen : 350 pages.

16. Soul--Tobsha Learner : 432 pages.

17. The Bell Jar--Sylvia Plath : 235 pages.

18. Breaking Dawn--Stephanie Meyer : 768 pages.

19. Troy--Adele Geras : 358 pages.

20. Fight Club--Chuck Palahniuk : 224 pages.

21. The Cobra Event--Richard Preston : 448 pages.

GRAND total: 8,350 pages.

and a total of 15.5 books read this summer. I'm almost done Sunshine.

Back to reading for school now. woot.

Quick entry of my Yearly Page Count. [remember bolded means favorite, asterisk means reread!]

1. Extras--Scott Westerfeld : 417 pages.

2. Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close--Jonathan Safran Foer : 326 pages.

3. Midnighters: The Secret Hour--Scott Westerfeld : 383 pages.

4. Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist--Rachel Cohn &David Levithan : 183 pages.

5. Midnighters: Touching Darkness--Scott Westerfeld : 439 pages.

6. Midnighters: Blue Noon--Scott Westerfeld : 505 pages.

7. The Host--Stephanie Meyer : 619 pages.

= 2,872 pages.

Still trying to complete 20,000 by the end of the year. I hope it can happen. I plan on reading a whole lot this summer. And a comment on Stephanie Meyer and the Twilight series and The Host. Now I can't deny that Stephanie Meyer really does write a good story and I will be the first person to defend the complete awesomeness of Bella, Edward, and the rest of the Cullen clan. But in reading The Host and in reading some reviews and such on Twilight, I realized that Stephanie Meyer really isn't that good of a writer and her writing style...well it kinda stinks. She's very repetitive and pretty predictable. She uses the same adjectives and phrases over and over. Also her female characters are very self-centered usually and annoyingly self-sacrificing but...well I dunno. Like I said, the stories really are fantastic. I really did love The Host. BUT I do stand by what I just said about her writing style.  ANYWAY. Enough about that. I have a lot to read this summer. Currently I'm reading--Lamb: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal. AND I highly recommend it, it's hilarious. 

Okay quick entry over.

ta!

Bittersweet.

I recommend listening to "Last Night" by Motion City Soundtrack while reading this entry. It may be a break-up song, but some of the lyrics do relate, plus to me it really is a beautiful song.

I'm not sure how I feel about leaving. In some ways Bryn Mawr College became my home. Nothing will replace the home where I grew up, but I really do believe that Bryn Mawr has become a second home to me. I know I've made friendships that I hope will last lifetimes, and then there are others that I feel like...well, not so much. There have been the ups and the downs that really do come with every aspect of life. I don't feel like I can judge though if I have changed this past year. If anything I would love to be able to step back and watch myself throughout the year: have I matured? Have I even changed at all? I still don't feel sure of where I should fit into the whole Bryn Mawr scene. I don't feel as if I'm unique enough, I feel like just another girl in the crowd. I'm not the smartest, I'm not the prettiest, so who am I? 

Anyway, this entry is supposed to be about leaving. It was so sad sending everything home the past two weeks or so. My room just felt so empty and lonely. It was lonely anyway considering I was the only person really living there...but that's another story that really doesn't need to be told. It's over finally, and I'll never have to deal with it, him, or her again. The frustration remains of the unsaid apologies, but I guess I can live with that. I just need to put it past me so it can just be over and end. I am going to miss Bryn Mawr this summer though. Though, maybe I'll just miss it because of the people I grew to love so much. I really don't know what I would have done without the wonderful girls I met, grew to know and love, and finally became my family. It really makes me happy that I was able to make such wonderful friendships. 

Mmph, yeah I've kind of hit a wall in what I was trying to say. Basically, I'm really glad I came to Bryn Mawr. Through the traditions and everything else wonderful that happened to me during the year, there is no doubt that it was the place where I was meant to go. I love you Bryn Mawr College. Keep being the place I want to return to.

ciao.

I'm still frustrated from last night

Things happened in half-time, I'm sick of the bends.

My panic research was no help

I sink into myself

Afraid of the fall that never ends.

I wait, but I'm too tired to play pretend.

I'll suffocate until the end.

No time for halfhearted goodbyes,

I turn on the spotlight and flee from the scene.

Cheap flights from Paris to Bangkok, I thought it was nonstop

Can't sleep on the KLM again.

I haunt the halls of medicine at night

Choking back the urge to fight.

Her cat was clawing the floorboards just outside of our door,

The panic begins.

I searched the whole damn apartment from ceiling to carpet

No sign of the things she used to own.

As autumn turns its back on me again,

I climb the walls for oxygen.

My body aches, it heaves, it shakes

All somersaults through so-called art

And I still don't know exactly who I am.

I never will, amen.

She whispers something in my ear, the message is unclear

She motions outside.

I trail her closely from behind

She tries hard not to cry

She shakes underneath the pouring rain.

"I can't compete with all your damn ideas.

This isn't working out for you or me.

The truth is I'm too tired to play pretend.

This is goodbye, this is the end."

RANDOM!

Who doesn't like a random 10-in-the-morning-after-you've-just-woken-up-blog?

Yeah, well. I love 'em. I actually just wanted to post a picture of my hair for Jen. Because saddness, even though I love the way the hair dresser does it, I'm never going to be able to get it to look like this ever again and I'm going to have to wash my hair sometime, right? SIGH. So anyway, here it is...

P.S. IGNORE THE DORKINESS OF ME AND LOOK AT THE HAIR. Thanks. =]

So there she is. I like it. The highlights look super good. I didn't realize how kind of bad mine were getting until I saw it. 

Anyway, now I'm trying to decide what I want to do today. I still sort of have to wake up a bit, so I'm probably going to lay around for a bit. Have some brunch in an hour or two. Read perhaps, then I'm thinking about driving to see Dusty. [Checks Dashboard...] It's 50 degrees outside, which isn't too bad. And later in the day it'll probably get warmer. So maybe that is what I will do. Because I wuv my widdle horsie.

But first things first. Waking up and eating. Two very important things. 

ciao!

EDIT: I'm reading Everything is Illuminated, and I couldn't help but laugh at this line:

"I'm looking for my voice." "It's in your mouth."

Okay that's it. =]

So, my checklist isn't going so well...

1. read at least five books. [nothing is getting done in this department]

2. blog more for Jen. [well this is my second post in like 2 days. does that count as improvement?]

3. drive more:

a. to see Nick [i did that!].

b. to see other friends [not so much].

c. visiting Bryn Mawr [nope...].

d. to see my horsie [sort of...i drove with my mom].

4. haircut! [done and doneeee].

5. knit the matching headband to my gloves. [i'm halfway there?]

So I don't know where I left off when I blogged last...let me check. =]

.....

Ah, okay. I blogged on Sunday. It is now Wednesday. RECAP TIME.

Monday: Let's see. I had a doctor's appointment where I got a freaking chicken pox shot...that still hurts and has a little fever I may add. Then I drove my mom to work in Cherry Hill. And I sat around her office like I always do which was fun. Then when Nick got back from school, he drove over to visit. =] Then after work I went with him back to his house and we [meaning my mom and I] went to watch him at bowling. And he was just awesome. Whether he thinks so or not. And it was fun. Then I drove my momma and I home. And that was that. As far as I can remember.

Tuesday: Woke up at 10. My dad was still home because he decided to do work at home. Then I followed him to Nick's house [because he and my mom were still kind worried about me driving by myself...le sigh]. So anyway, I stayed at his house all day and helped him study for his midterm. Oh and we watched an America's Next Top Model marathon. Teehee. Then my mom came by and I followed her to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory where we all ate wayyyyyy too much, but it was oh so worth it. And then we drove home. And then we went to visit my grandmother. And then that's it I believe. 

Wednesday: That's today!! Let's see, woke up early for my hair appointment at 9. Drove there. Drove back. And did basically absolutely nothing after that. Watched trashy TV on VH1. An episode of Las Vegas on TNT. Though I did actually try looking for internships, but I couldn't find ANYTHING. And thats basically it. I screwed around all day basically doing nothing. Le siiiigh. 

Ah well. Maybe tomorrow will be a more productive day. Alright sorry Jen, I don't really know what else to say. Maybe I'll be more creative tomorrow. Love ya! <3

ciao!

Spring Break. =]

Mmm, spring break. 

So there's a lot I want to get accomplished this break and I really hope I can do it all. So, since I love writing lists, here's one for my goals for Spring Break '08:

1. read at least 5 books [ ].

2. blog more for Jen [ ].

3. drive more :

a. to see Nick like 500 times [ ].

b. to see Holly/other friends home for break [ ].

c. maybe visiting Bryn Mawr? [ ].

d. to see my horsie [ ].

4. haircut! [ ]

5. knit the matching headband to my gloves [ ].

Okay, I can't think of anything else right now. If I do, I'll update. And I'll update as I complete things. So far, break hasn't been too exciting. I'm a little upset because Nick is being a weirdo again about not wanting to drive to see me because he's "tired of always having to drive" and "it's too much" and "it's too hard." UGH. So I haven't seen him at all yet. And the annoying thing is that it's not my fault that I can't drive to see him yet. My parents won't let me, because, for an obvious parental reason, they want me to be safe. And I haven't driven to Cherry Hill alone yet. And my parents want me to drive there with them first before driving it myself. Which is understandable. Because, yes, I am a little nervous about driving there by myself, and it would be good to know that I knew how to get there and be able to be safe while doing it. And he doesn't seem to understand that I'm trying and I have been trying to drive to see him for a while. I'd do it. But he just doesn't seem to believe me. And he's mad that I didn't get my license sooner, but again that also wasn't my fault...my mom canceled my first driving test. Oy vey.  ANYWAY. Needless to say I'm sad I haven't seen my boyfriend yet over this break because he's being stubborn. [I also feel bad because he's had a really bad weekend and he wanted me to be there to see him. Of course when I told him I couldn't he'd get madder and wouldn't talk to me for a while. Le grande sigh.]

But anyway. Saturday: woke up, went grocery shopping and to lunch with my dad. IT WAS POURING. Like I'm talking monsoon [another reason why my dad didn't want me driving to Cherry Hill. Again, understandable because it was dangerous]. Anyway, so then for the rest of the day I sat around and watched Mission Impossible II, Air Force One, half of Troy, and then some random History Channel show about Alexander the Great until I fell asleep. Which was really early because I was sick of "talking" to Nick online because he wasn't saying anything. So then I woke up an hour later than I wanted to the next morning because of Daylight Savings Time. Stupid time changes. But then I drove a lot. Drove to see my grandmother [she had her surgery and is trying to recover. She's alright. Miserable as always. Hah.]. Drove to where I'm going to get my haircut to make my mom feel better. Then drove to see my horse Dusty. And it was lovely. Cold. But nice. I missed him. Then drove home. Ate dinner. And now I'm here writing this.

So in the end after this looooong entry, spring break hasn't been too interesting. Pretty boring. Nothing really happening. Hopefully stuff will. 

Since Jen's the only one reading this. I miss you Jen!!! =] I'm going to blog more I promise. It's in my list. It'll get done. <3

ciao!

Ice Ice Baby.

So I was inspired to write a post today. Actually, Anna told me I should because something totally momentous and, actually, utterly embarrassing, occurred. First a bit of background:

I have come to the realization that every single time I go to a restaurant and I order iced tea...I never get ice in it. Either none at all, or a very minimal amount. I have decided that it is a conspiracy against me. No one wants me to have ice in my iced tea. But you see, it's not just me who's noticed this. My mom and Nick both agree that I never get ice in my iced tea either.

So I was reiterating this to my lovely Bryn Mawr girls [+Mark] at dinner at Bertucci's tonight when I got an iced tea with, yes you guessed it, NO ice. Now apparently I was delineating my conspiracy theory while the waiter was standing RIGHT BEHIND ME. Major faux pas. I had absolutely no idea he was behind me. Then all of a sudden he comes back with another iced tea for me that was half full of ice and said, "Here's a new one with ICE and a nice lemon." I felt my face go from normal to fire engine red. I was so utterly embarrassed I could not believe it. I kept saying "OH MY GOD Thank you! Ah Ah! Thanks so much! OHMIGOSH!"

But, from this horrifying experience came a good thing, I finally got an iced tea with a significant amount of ice and I was happy. It was some good iced tea too. =]

I would also post about the beginning of the semester and about classes and such, but I'm going home soon and won't have that much time. So I'll leave all that for another post. I will say, however, that I am GETTING MY BABY CAR THIS WEEKEND. SQUEE!!!!! My -cough- pre-owned -cough- BLUE MINI COOPER S WITH A WHITE ROOF WHITE RACING STRIPES HEATED SEATS POWER MOONROOF PREMIUM SOUND SYSTEM DRIVING LAMPS AND A SPOILER. -ahem- Can you tell I'm a bit excited? Well I can't wait. And he's coming home tomorrow. =] 

I'm still trying to decide between Hermes and Andy. I like both. Hmm. Well I'll sleep on it.

ciao.

Yearly Page Count:

[and as I copy from my lovely friend Gesina: bolded means recommended, asterisks mean reread]

1. Extras--Scott Westerfeld : 417 pages.

2. Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close--Jonathan Safran Foer : 326 pages.

3. Midnighters: The Secret Hour--Scott Westerfeld : 383 pages.

4. Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist--Rachel Cohn &David Levithan : 183 pages.

5. Midnighters: Touching Darkness--Scott Westerfeld : 439 pages.

6. Midnighters: Blue Noon--Scott Westerfeld : 505 pages.

= 2,253 pages.

I really want to aim for 20,000 pages for the end of the year. To me, that would be AWESOME. And I have to say that if I could bold Nick &Norah more I would. Because that book was pure love. It was absolutely amazing. I recommend it SO much. Oh, and since I'm doing lists...I'll do a list of the CDs I got for Christmas in case anyone would like to mooch. =] 

1. Dusk And Summer--Dashboard Confessional

2. Motion Sickness: Live Recordings--Bright Eyes

3. O--Damien Rice

4. There Is No Beginning to the Story EP--Bright Eyes

5. Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street OST

6. A Sun Came!--Sufjan Stevens

7. Lost Songs--Anberlin

8. Spirit If...--Broken Social Scene Presents: Kevin Drew

9. Alternative Rock Christmas--Various Artists

10. Ones and Zeros--Immaculate Machine

11. The Crane Wife--The Decemberists

12. In Your Dreams--Gregory & the Hawk

13. North--Something Corporate

14. Echoes, Silence, Patience, & Grace--Foo Fighters

15. The Reminder--Feist

16. Year of Meteors--Laura Veirs

17. EP--Arcade Fire

18. Take It Easy [Love Nothing]--Bright Eyes

19. No World For Tomorrow--Coheed & Cambria

20. Grey's Anatomy Soundtracks 1-3

ciao.