Inspiration. Or Lack Thereof.

I actually have incentive to blog now. Though I still wish I could go back to the artsy fartsy posts I used to do, but sadly I really haven't been feeling creative. Like...at all. The last creative thing I wrote was my self-diagnosis for my medieval healing class, but that still had to be all academic-y and use quotes and footnotes and ish. I wish I had the inspiration to write something that actually was meaningful and had weight to it. Not just something pulled together from facts for school. Ah well, I guess I really didn't inherit the creative gene from my dad. Sometimes I feel I do, but presently...not so much. And to think I wanted to take short fiction...EEKS.

The only way I can get out creativity is by creating CD mixes. Which I haven't actually done in a really long time. I tried making one for Nick for our anniversary/Valentine's day...but it never worked out. I got so stuck I couldn't think of anything else to add. But now I decided I not only want to really finish that, but also make mixes for Rachel for her birthday. I made them last year and I know she really appreciates them so I'm hoping I'll be able to do a good job. Here's what I have so far for one of them. I'd like to be able to get them done by Wednesday so they get to JMU for the weekend or something. Hopefully my workload won't hold me back. [P.S. The songs aren't in the final order yet either.]

Rachel's 20!
1. White Winter Hymnal - Fleet Foxes
2. Brand New Day - Joshua Radin
3. Think I Wanna Die - Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin
4. Half My Heart Beats - The Smittens
5. I Owe You A Love Song - Shiny Toy Guns
6. Miss California - Jack's Mannequin
7. Viva La Vida - Coldplay [I may change this]
8. Crack The Shutters - Snow Patrol
9. 5 Years Time - Noah And the Whale
10. The Heartbreak Rides - A.C. Newman
11. Falling Without Knowing - Tilly & The Wall
12. Maps - Rogue Wave
13. Don't Let Me Fall - Lenka
14. Glittering Clouds [Locusts] - Imogen Heap
15. In a Sweater Poorly Knit - Mewithoutyou
16. Temptation - New Order
17. When the Water Gets Cold [And Freezes on the Lake] - Herman Dune
18. Under My Skin - Jukebox the Ghost
19. You Found Me - The Fray [maybe?]

Help! Any other suggestions? This isn't really supposed to be a themed mix...which I usually like to do, but maybe I'll make a second one that's themed, we'll see.

My posts always morph into lists. I don't know why...
GOALS FOR THE WEEK:
[ ] survive fencing tomorrow hopefully without having an asthma attack of epic coughing proportions.
[ ] also survive fencing on Thursday.
[ ] pass my microbio quiz tomorrow.
[ ] NO SPENDING.
[ ] register for Rowan Organic Chemistry summer course. hopefully.
[ ] keep my room clean.
[ ] get all of my reading done for my medieval class so I can start thinking about the paper.
[ ] make CDs for Rachel.
[ ] study like mad for second microbio exam.
[ ] take microbio exam and ACE it. hopefully.
[ ] stay on top of all my work.
[ ] try to go to bed by midnight every night. eeps!
[ ] DON'T STRESS OUT. hopefully.

I think I've overused the word hopefully. I'm going to have to stop.
That's all for now I suppose. I'm tired and have a quiz tomorrow. JOY.

ciao.



He's really sick. I don't know if I'm just overreacting...which is highly possible. But I've said "I love you" in text messages to him a bunch of times and not once has he said it back...I am overreacting right? Yes. I'm being ridiculous. I hope. I want him to get better. I'm really worried. Especially because we really haven't talked at all today...UGH.

New Layout on Life.

So here's a new layout. Well, just new colors really. I didn't feel like trying to find a fancy pretty layout like Jen's.

I'm way sorry for not blogging, but in response to my last post I did actually do a lot of things that I wanted. Let's see..

1. I want to go home. [check!]
2. I want to read at least ten books. [oops...didn't even get through one. sad...]
3. I want to relax and sleep. [CHECK!]
4. I want to spend time with my boyfriend. [check check check!!]
5. I want to visit and kiss and love my horse. [sadly no. i didn't get to see him which makes me really sad].
6. I want to visit Jen and Gillian. [check! i visited Jen hurray!]
7. I want to drive around in Hermes. [CHECK!]
8. I want to cuddle by the fireplace. [well...no.]
9. I want to play my guitar. [fail.]
10. I want to FEEL BETTER. [can I give half a check? I feel better, but I'm definitely still sick. yuck.]
11. I want warm weather. [well this was out of my control, but there were a couple of nice warm days.]
12. I want to drive around with the windows down and the sunroof open. [CHECK! it made me so so happy.]
13. I want springtime and flowers and green leaves. [again, out of my control. so no.]
14. I WANT TO GO HOME AND SEE MY WONDERFUL PARENTS SO THEY CAN TAKE CARE OF ME AND I CAN FEEL LOVED. [CHECK!]


So all in all. It wasn't a bad break. I didn't get TONS of homework done. But as I always feel, break is a time to relax. And I definitely did that. Anyway let's try to recap what I did this break so maybe I'll feel a bit accomplished. I went to work with my grandfather Monday and Wednesday, which was good because I got to get paid! Which in my current situation is always a good thing. Tuesday I went to the dentist [ick] and then drove to Bryn Mawr to spend time with Jen and Anna, which was really nice. The drive wasn't bad at all, I'm looking forward to hopefully doing it more often and hopefully having Hermes there next year! I went to Chipotle for the first time and it was absolutely DELISH. I'll be heading there with Jen again sometime I think. =] Thursday I went to work with my momma and did some filing and shredding for her, no money but she bought me a pretty shirt and flip flops later. We went out to dinner with Nick's sister at Bertucci's which was yummy yummy. Then Nick came over later that night and spent the night. Friday was a lazy day with my boo. We played Rock Band all morning then went out to lunch. We came back and watched the creepiest movie ever with my mom [Sibyll...shiver]. My dad made us chili for dinner. Boo and I watched TV with my mom then he had to go home. Sad. Saturday was pretty lazy as well. I watched movies with my dad/ did homework. Then I drove up to Cherry Hill to go see Watchmen with Nick, and his friend and his friend's girlfriend. It was a really good movie. Way too long probably, and I'm definitely going to have to see it again to fully understand it. Went to UNO's for dinner at 11:30 haha. Then drove home. And now it's Sunday. And I'm trying to get homework accomplished. I'm almost done my chemistry homework. Then I really have to do some reading and PACK. uck. I don't really want to go back to Bryn Mawr because I'm just really worried about classes this semester. But I know I have to buckle down and get things done. I have to keep encouraging myself and hopefully try to do as well as possible.

As far as the no spending thing for Lent goes...I've only spent money on food. And the toll to go to Bryn Mawr. That's good right? Haha, but things are OH SO TEMPTING. But I shall persevere!

I guess I should go back tot hat homework. Le sigh.

SPRING BREAK.

I want it NOW.
I don't want to be sick.
I don't want to have a midterm tomorrow.
I don't want to write a lab report.
I don't want to write a paper.
I don't want to go to Chemistry class.
I don't want to go to Medieval class either.
I WANT BREAK.
I want to go home.
I want to read at least 10 books.
I want to relax and sleep.
I want to spend time with my boyfriend.
I want to visit and kiss and love and ride my horse.
I want to visit Jen and Gillian.
I want to drive around in Hermes.
I want to cuddle by the fireplace.
I want to play my guitar.
I want to FEEL BETTER.
I want warm weather.
I want to drive with the windows down and the sunroof open.
I want springtime and flowers and green leaves.


Okay...so the last couple most likely won't be possible to achieve over spring break. But one can hope right?

ciao.

EDIT: Because my dad made me feel bad...I WANT TO GO HOME AND SEE MY WONDERFUL PARENTS SO THEY CAN TAKE CARE OF ME AND I CAN FEEL LOVED. =]
better?

UGH.

Almost everyone had classes canceled today except me.

And I'm still sick.

And unhappy.

And I don't like it.

UGH.





ciao.