Re: Stacks

Bon Iver is brilliant.

This my excavation and today is kumran
Everything that happens from now on
This is pouring rain
This is paralyzed

I keep throwing it down two-hunded at a time
It's hard to find it when you knew it
When your money's gone
And you're drunk as hell

On your back with your racks as the stacks are your load
In the back and the racks and the stacks of your load
In the back with your racks and you're un-stacking your load

Well I've been twisting to the sun and the moon
I needed to replace
The fountain in the front yard is rusted out
All my love was down
In a frozen ground

There's a black crow sitting across from me
His wiry legs are crossed
He is dangling my keys, he even fakes a toss
Whatever could it be
That has brought me to this loss?

On your back with your racks as the stacks are your load
In the back and the racks and the stacks of your load
In the back with your racks and you're un-stacking your load

This is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization
It's the sound of the unlocking and the lift away
Your love will be
Safe with me

Inspiration. Or Lack Thereof.

I actually have incentive to blog now. Though I still wish I could go back to the artsy fartsy posts I used to do, but sadly I really haven't been feeling creative. Like...at all. The last creative thing I wrote was my self-diagnosis for my medieval healing class, but that still had to be all academic-y and use quotes and footnotes and ish. I wish I had the inspiration to write something that actually was meaningful and had weight to it. Not just something pulled together from facts for school. Ah well, I guess I really didn't inherit the creative gene from my dad. Sometimes I feel I do, but presently...not so much. And to think I wanted to take short fiction...EEKS.

The only way I can get out creativity is by creating CD mixes. Which I haven't actually done in a really long time. I tried making one for Nick for our anniversary/Valentine's day...but it never worked out. I got so stuck I couldn't think of anything else to add. But now I decided I not only want to really finish that, but also make mixes for Rachel for her birthday. I made them last year and I know she really appreciates them so I'm hoping I'll be able to do a good job. Here's what I have so far for one of them. I'd like to be able to get them done by Wednesday so they get to JMU for the weekend or something. Hopefully my workload won't hold me back. [P.S. The songs aren't in the final order yet either.]

Rachel's 20!
1. White Winter Hymnal - Fleet Foxes
2. Brand New Day - Joshua Radin
3. Think I Wanna Die - Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin
4. Half My Heart Beats - The Smittens
5. I Owe You A Love Song - Shiny Toy Guns
6. Miss California - Jack's Mannequin
7. Viva La Vida - Coldplay [I may change this]
8. Crack The Shutters - Snow Patrol
9. 5 Years Time - Noah And the Whale
10. The Heartbreak Rides - A.C. Newman
11. Falling Without Knowing - Tilly & The Wall
12. Maps - Rogue Wave
13. Don't Let Me Fall - Lenka
14. Glittering Clouds [Locusts] - Imogen Heap
15. In a Sweater Poorly Knit - Mewithoutyou
16. Temptation - New Order
17. When the Water Gets Cold [And Freezes on the Lake] - Herman Dune
18. Under My Skin - Jukebox the Ghost
19. You Found Me - The Fray [maybe?]

Help! Any other suggestions? This isn't really supposed to be a themed mix...which I usually like to do, but maybe I'll make a second one that's themed, we'll see.

My posts always morph into lists. I don't know why...
GOALS FOR THE WEEK:
[ ] survive fencing tomorrow hopefully without having an asthma attack of epic coughing proportions.
[ ] also survive fencing on Thursday.
[ ] pass my microbio quiz tomorrow.
[ ] NO SPENDING.
[ ] register for Rowan Organic Chemistry summer course. hopefully.
[ ] keep my room clean.
[ ] get all of my reading done for my medieval class so I can start thinking about the paper.
[ ] make CDs for Rachel.
[ ] study like mad for second microbio exam.
[ ] take microbio exam and ACE it. hopefully.
[ ] stay on top of all my work.
[ ] try to go to bed by midnight every night. eeps!
[ ] DON'T STRESS OUT. hopefully.

I think I've overused the word hopefully. I'm going to have to stop.
That's all for now I suppose. I'm tired and have a quiz tomorrow. JOY.

ciao.



He's really sick. I don't know if I'm just overreacting...which is highly possible. But I've said "I love you" in text messages to him a bunch of times and not once has he said it back...I am overreacting right? Yes. I'm being ridiculous. I hope. I want him to get better. I'm really worried. Especially because we really haven't talked at all today...UGH.

Bliss-Out Time.

Unfortunately I can't listen to it now because I have to go to class.
BUT.
I made this playlist to help me fall asleep at night, but it also works as a wonderful chill-out-stress-free-no-worries-about-sickness-mix. And I love it.
Listen preferably on shuffle [considering all the artist names are alphabetical which annoys be a bit. =P].

1. Unwinding Cable Car--Anberlin
2. Scythian Empires--Andrew Bird
3. Keep the Car Running--Arcade Fire
4. Coffee and Cigarettes--Augustana
5. You Remind Me Of Home--Ben Gibbard
6. Congratulations--Blue October, ft. Imogen Heap
7. Anthems For A Seventeen-Year-Old Girl--Broken Social Scene
8. Wonder [Live]--Colin Meloy
9. Where There's Gold...--Dashboard Confessional
10. Grapevine Fires--Death Cab for Cutie
11. Red Right Ankle--The Decemberists
12. Brightly Wound--Eisley
13. Your Song--Elton John
14. May It Be--Enya [Lord of the Rings Soundtrack <3]
15. Your Hand In Mine [Goodbye]--Explosions in the Sky
16. Gatekeeper--Feist
17. On Your Porch--The Format
18. Boats and Birds--Gregory and the Hawk
19. Two Days in February--Goo Goo Dolls [EOAC version]
20. Cherry Tulips--Headlights
21. When The Water Gets Cold [And Freezes On The Lake]--Herman Dune
22. Miles Behind Me--Hotel Lights
23. Love And Some Verses--Iron & Wine
24. Sweet Baby James--James Taylor
25. The Fear You Won't Fall--Joshua Radin
26. Singing Softly To Me--Kings of Convenience
27. Mornings Eleven--The Magic Numbers
28. Cold December--Matt Costa
29. In A Sweater Poorly Knit--Mewithoutyou
30. Le Grande Sucrerie--Miou Miou
31. Au Fond D'Un Reve Dore--Nada Surf [there are accents...I just don't know how to do them on my computer. eeks!]
32. Go Places--The New Pornographers
33. Have You Forgotten--Red House Painters
34. More Adventurous--Rilo Kiley
35. One More Day Goes By--Some By Sea
36. Heart--Stars
37. Chicago [Acoustic]--Sufjan Stevens
38. I Was Married--Tegan & Sara
39. Sleeping With The Lights On--Teitur Lassen
40. Let It Rain--Tilly & The Wall
41. Bittersweet Symphony--The Verve
42. Living in Twilight--The Weepies
43. Piazza, New York Catcher--Belle & Sebastian
44. Paperweight--Joshua Radin & Schuyler Fisk
45. Into the West--Annie Lennox [Lord of the Rings Sountrack <333]

So there it is. Maybe I'll post more playlists on here. I love making playlists and maybe by posting them I can get more ideas. Because I've definitely had a mind block lately. Ah well. Time for Medieval Medicine. Maybe Prof Truitt can diagnose me. =P

ciao!

LENT-ing.

So Jen and I have decided that for Lent this year we're giving up spending extra money. Now for me this essentially means I'm not to buy anything at all and MUST go to the dining halls to eat or else I can't get any food. We also decided to blog about our Lent-ing woes--pining about things we want and things we can't have because we are not allowed to spend anything. 

This week...well it sucks. I'm sick [in a weird way, it's not really a cold, but I have a sore throat...and I'm really really tired and woozy, but I don't have any other cold symptoms really. whatever]. And I got back two grades on tests that I did not do so superbly on. These things make Alyssa unhappy. And normally, on days like today--beautiful weather, stressful situations--I would love to walk to Starbucks with Stephanie to get a nice cold Caramel Macchiato or something. But I passed. Number 1 because I'm sick as a dog and walking more than to and from class makes me really out of breath. And number 2 because I CAN'T SPEND MONEY [I no longer have money on my Starbucks card...tear]. So in a way I feel good because, yes, I'm not spending $4 on a drink, making me $4 richer than I normally would be today, but on the other hand I'm sad because it would be such a nice thing to have.

Anyway. That's my story. Jen's way more intense about it and is like keeping a record of all the money she's saving hoping to buy kick ass Chucks:

But me, I'm just trying to get by and not spend all the money in my bank account, also considering I have no source of income. Yay.

In other news, I really want to be able to read. I have like 5 books I'm really frantic to want to read but I HAVE NO TIME. And I really want spring break because I really can't handle being at school anymore. I'm just getting way too stressed out and frustrated at things and I really feel like I can't handle it anymore. So I just want to go home. For real. I feel weird, I never do "what's going on in my life" posts much anymore. Well maybe I do...I don't know. I guess it makes me feel better. And I'm not in the right mind-set to do any homework right now, I'm too woozy, so I guess writing a blog entry is better. 

In other other news...I'm obsessed with Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin. And I only have 5 of their songs. SO FREAKING GOOD. Okay. I'm done for now I think I'll sleep.

ciao!

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EDIT: Just kidding, apparently I have done "what's going on in my life" posts recently. Oops!

LIFE.

If there is one cd you ever own in your life, it should be this one.

That is all.

ciao!